i haven't slept for 2 weeks because of the topic of children.
no i'm not married.
no i haven't been asked either.
but i've been asked to have children.
to carry a family name.
is that something to ponder?
Don't Push Me
I was driving down Meadowvale, about to turn left onto Old Finch when all of a sudden the sky flashed pink, a single lightning bolt lit the sky commanding silence. The street lights dimmed their glare in reverence and all was still and dark. I, on the other hand, almost had a heart attack from the sudden pinkness and then the absence of street lights.
Considering the speed at which your life is moving, a gentle nudge would be all it takes to radically alter your trajectory. One such small adjustment could have unexpected consequences. For the next day or so, slow down.
Considering the speed at which your life is moving, a gentle nudge would be all it takes to radically alter your trajectory. One such small adjustment could have unexpected consequences. For the next day or so, slow down.
Wednesday
today i sat in the garage for 2 hours to do work.
the garage was the only place i could find quiet.
in the garage, in my parked car, in the dark, on my computer, doing work.
the garage was the only place i could find quiet.
in the garage, in my parked car, in the dark, on my computer, doing work.
My New Tat
I think it's self explanatory...
#2 & #3 to follow... in probably a few months if not a [100] few years!
Portraits
Today I had the privilege of attending the taping of the Hour with George Stroumboulopoulos. This man is very, very cool and down earth.
He spoke with Joe Clarke (previously taped hence no pic) and Eugene Levy.
Must Remember....
Memory: an organisms mental capability to store, retain, and recall information.
Faded pictures is all I have of you
Echoes of memories
A happy past lifetime
Lost amongst the wind
Could it be so many sunsets ago
I held you close to me
Was it but a fleeting moment
That our lives were meant to be
Once upon a time, I met this person, he was charming and loveable on the outside, but had no respect for himself on the inside. Naturally his outer facade was seen through and the world saw his ugliness. He reminds me of Dorian Gray. A part of me will always wish that this person will find himself before it's lost amongst the ruins and realize that life is about more than the superficial and that perfection is user defined.
On that note - sending all my love & fuzzy feelings to my one and only xoxo
Under the Microscope
When you have nothing better to do but to re-evaluate your life, dangerous things happen.You stop and you come to terms with things that you have swept under the rug because you did not have the "time" to deal with them.
"Skeletons in the closets"
I realized today that I am very tired of chasing. I never liked tag as a kid, it was one of the most pointless games I learnt to play. For 15 whole minutes, all you do is run around tagging people and then running away from them when you succeeded... Considering I never liked it as a child, it is easy to say I do not like it now.
Worst yet, now it is not a game, it is just an ever chasing of something that may not exist.
What am I chasing that seems so impossible?
A dream, an ideal, a notion, a desire, who I am reciprocated.
Ah
Now that I have said it out loud, it is that much easier to accept that it will never exist.
Tonight, the words are too jumbled to make sense.
Even the sensation is too harsh of a trap to try and escape.
For tonight, I surrender.
For tonight, I am not worthy of what I deserve.
For one more night, I will hopefully wait.
A Bone to Pick...
I'm annoyed - and most people know I don't get annoyed easily.
I've recently noticed that there are some people who take a lot of things... and I mean A LOT of things for granted... one being friendship.
I wonder what gives people the right to think they can literally demand things of people without speaking with them first and then giving a nonchalant "if it happens, it happens, if it doesn't don't worry about it" response. That is plain selfish.
Just because some people are fine with assuming that their inconvenience does not bother other people does not mean that the inconvenience doesn't bother people. It may sound redundant, but really, think about it.
Why are some people so comfortable with making others make adjustments for them but never compromising on their end? They make people go out of the way for them, yet they do nothing in return.
Let's take for an example, if a friend invited you out to dinner for your birthday and you invite other people, do you assume that friend will pay for all your friends that tagged along? Would you even think it fair to ask such a stupid question? Sounds obvious - but apparently not to some.
Anyway, I can go on and on, but I don't want to point fingers - it is that Christmas time and if I'm going to be forgiving I should be extra forgiving around this time of year...
Mirror to the Soul
I can show you all the beauty you possess if you would only let yourself believe.
Rootless
A rootless foundation
Shouts of timber
Watch the bending branches
Wind merely whistling
Dew gathering
Trunk toppling
Cannot hold itself up
Under any natural pressure
Fall down
Rootless foundation
Fluff
I'm not sure why - but stuff that fluffs off the flowers (like the aftermath of a dandy lion) makes me happy.... I like fluffy stuff!
Why When I
We don't exist upon your wallBut I am to assume I mean the world
There is no urgency in us
But I am to assume it is everything
I am not allowed into your heart
But I am to assume all that is there
I am not allowed to understand
But I am to assume it all makes sense
We don't glimmer in your eyes
But I am to assume together forever
We used to calm my soul
When the world wreaked havoc
We became the havoc
That wreaked my soul
We used to be taken lightly
Because there was no real future
We used to pass aimlessly
Because there was no need to think twice
But here we are, we are breaking
I am to assume I unwound the strings
For the things that were wounded
Were never as I desired
Here we are falling
Into a never ending cycle
I am to assume I want too much
That when I speak I cause a mental eruption
We break my heart
When we seem to have no priority
When we seem to just get by
When I must list all the reasons without rhyme or reason or help or support that you want exactly what I want; when all I've done is spoken, and expressed, and pleaded, and asked, and fell on my knees and begged.
When I assume, I am wrong.
But I am but to assume the best intentions.
Alone on a Rock...
What if youCould wish me away
What if you
Spoke those words today
I wonder if you'd miss me
When I'm gone
It's come to this, release me
I'll leave before the dawn
But for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do
What if you
Could here this song
What if I
Felt like I belong
I might not be leaving so soon
Began the night believing
I loved you in the moonlight
So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do
I could've treated you better
Better than this
Well, I'm gone, this song's your letter
Can't stay in one place
So, for tonight
I'll stay here with you
Yes, for tonight
I'll lay here with you
But when the sun hits your eyes
Through your window
There'll be nothing you can do
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