There are people so desperate for the approvals of others that they will go out of their way to look just like them... except what they don't realize is what a complete idiot they turn out to be and end up losing even more of the little respect they originally had.
I don't need to put names to incidences... but let's just say I came to work today to find that I had a supposed twin. And needless to say, I was not amused. I laughed just a little bit as not to stir up trouble. But I laughed.
Heaven Meet Me
This is a sugar apple.
A long time favorite of mine.
Today after over 10 years of being apart, we were re-united.
At a cost, but nonetheless.
Heaven on Earth.
Read all about it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sugar-apple
Can I Plug?
I was at Starbucks today and happily found 2 plugs in the wall to use because I needed them.
I had my headphones off - hoping to deter any comments/questions/conversations/anything requiring my acknowledgment as I worked to restore my computer.
This weird little man comes and sits down with me and tries to talk with me and I mean WEIRD. I tried to pretend I didn't hear him the first time, but he actually waved at me in front of my screen.
He said I see you're working hard and the internet is working. HUH?
I have an air card, but I didn't get into that. I barely smiled and shoved the ear phones back into my ear hoping it was a sign I did not want to talk.
Then he waved me again and said "can I plug? can I plug" pointing to the plug.
Normally I have more patience than this, but if I'm plugged into both sockets don't you think there's a reason? There are no signs in Starbucks that says I need to SHARE. AND he did not purchase anything. I bought an effing six dollar frappa something or another just to use the plug & be left in peace.
Because of his frantic waving I ended up leaving and sitting in my car going about my business.
Why are some people SO clueless?
I had my headphones off - hoping to deter any comments/questions/conversations/anything requiring my acknowledgment as I worked to restore my computer.
This weird little man comes and sits down with me and tries to talk with me and I mean WEIRD. I tried to pretend I didn't hear him the first time, but he actually waved at me in front of my screen.
He said I see you're working hard and the internet is working. HUH?
I have an air card, but I didn't get into that. I barely smiled and shoved the ear phones back into my ear hoping it was a sign I did not want to talk.
Then he waved me again and said "can I plug? can I plug" pointing to the plug.
Normally I have more patience than this, but if I'm plugged into both sockets don't you think there's a reason? There are no signs in Starbucks that says I need to SHARE. AND he did not purchase anything. I bought an effing six dollar frappa something or another just to use the plug & be left in peace.
Because of his frantic waving I ended up leaving and sitting in my car going about my business.
Why are some people SO clueless?
Skinny Jeans
So... What's the skinny on skinny jeans?? Did designers realize not everyone in anorexic? Maybe I'm the only that's not... In fact it's not even about being fat because I'm not, but I have a butt... and I like my butt, on most days, but today, I tried those skinny jeans on... and let me tell you, I got them on alright, but I was literally rolling on the floor of the change room - which anybody knows is really not all that big - trying to peel them off. I guess that's what I get for trying to follow a stupid fad.
Note: No offense to all those who look great in them! :)
Note: No offense to all those who look great in them! :)
Libra (Sept. 23 — Oct. 23)
You are getting the same obvious view of a crucial picture each time you look at it. There is something behind all this. That something is what you sorely need to see more clearly. Put your eyes and mind on alert full alert today.
730
I went for a drive to clear the congestion in my head.
I got on the highway and for about 6 exits all that was in front of me was congestion. Almost 1/2 hour stuck in traffic at 11:00pm.
If you can't laugh at the ironies in my life, I don't know what else there is to do.
I drove to Ajax and decided gas was $102.9 last I checked and I did not want to pay so much to gas up. I turned around and my street is also CONGESTED... everybody's cars were parked on the road because their drive ways were being paved.
Seriously.
I got on the highway and for about 6 exits all that was in front of me was congestion. Almost 1/2 hour stuck in traffic at 11:00pm.
If you can't laugh at the ironies in my life, I don't know what else there is to do.
I drove to Ajax and decided gas was $102.9 last I checked and I did not want to pay so much to gas up. I turned around and my street is also CONGESTED... everybody's cars were parked on the road because their drive ways were being paved.
Seriously.
Facetious Life
You know clowns are supposed to make people laugh - their life (or at least work life) is nothing much but a big laughable joke.
Today I found out, mine [non-work] life it nothing but a facetious remark in the grand scale of time. Ironically my work life is what's giving me purpose. Nothing else.
God expressed his sense of humor in assembling a creature that is a little bit mammal (the platypus, a native to Australia, produces milk and is furry), a little bit reptile (it lays eggs and has venom, released from spurs in the hind legs) and a little bit bird (eggs again, plus it has a bill like a duck as well as webbed feet). He needed a human version and he made me.
Today I found out, mine [non-work] life it nothing but a facetious remark in the grand scale of time. Ironically my work life is what's giving me purpose. Nothing else.
God expressed his sense of humor in assembling a creature that is a little bit mammal (the platypus, a native to Australia, produces milk and is furry), a little bit reptile (it lays eggs and has venom, released from spurs in the hind legs) and a little bit bird (eggs again, plus it has a bill like a duck as well as webbed feet). He needed a human version and he made me.
103.5 and Empty
8:22am Gas tank empty
8:27am Sunoco @ 95.6
8:33am Started car after "filling" $10 at $103.5. Gas light still on.
8:34am Re-started car, gas light... still on.
9.56 litres of gas got me from VERY empty to empty.
At least my car is supposed to go at least 100 km on 10 litres of gas. SUPPOSED to.
8:27am Sunoco @ 95.6
8:33am Started car after "filling" $10 at $103.5. Gas light still on.
8:34am Re-started car, gas light... still on.
9.56 litres of gas got me from VERY empty to empty.
At least my car is supposed to go at least 100 km on 10 litres of gas. SUPPOSED to.
Today felt like one of those United Way commercials. Gas to get to work, or eat. No choice but to to go work...
... in this economy...
Another Day
There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
There's only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what's right
There's only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
There's only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what's right
What does it mean when you're too tired to argue for what should be yours?
When your life becomes a favour to the rest of the world, what do you do?
If you sow and there's no crop, does that make you a failure?
How do you justify begging for something that shouldn't need to be begged for?
Where is the top of the world when all you know is the bottom?
Do you believe in serendipity if it doesn't believe in you?
Trailer Park @ the Ball Park
I was at the ball game today. It was terribly boring - the ball game part. But I was privileged (some would use other words) to be sitting in front of about 5-6 friends who sounded like they were straight out of the Trailer Park boys... with one of them even named Ricky! HA!
The topics of conversation were so philosophical... the biography of each player, some guy who should focus on getting his education, buying a sunfire (not sure why anybody would), telling newfie jokes - although the guy telling it sounded like he was a newfie himself. Does that mean he's just merely telling a joke?
Anyway - just my luck to be stuck in front of a bunch of weirdos for 3 hours listening to the most absurd topics of conversation... do people realize they sound stupid?
OH and obviously - only me... I got kneed in the back of the head by "Ricky" - figures.
The topics of conversation were so philosophical... the biography of each player, some guy who should focus on getting his education, buying a sunfire (not sure why anybody would), telling newfie jokes - although the guy telling it sounded like he was a newfie himself. Does that mean he's just merely telling a joke?
Anyway - just my luck to be stuck in front of a bunch of weirdos for 3 hours listening to the most absurd topics of conversation... do people realize they sound stupid?
OH and obviously - only me... I got kneed in the back of the head by "Ricky" - figures.
Children...
i haven't slept for 2 weeks because of the topic of children.
no i'm not married.
no i haven't been asked either.
but i've been asked to have children.
to carry a family name.
is that something to ponder?
no i'm not married.
no i haven't been asked either.
but i've been asked to have children.
to carry a family name.
is that something to ponder?
Don't Push Me
I was driving down Meadowvale, about to turn left onto Old Finch when all of a sudden the sky flashed pink, a single lightning bolt lit the sky commanding silence. The street lights dimmed their glare in reverence and all was still and dark. I, on the other hand, almost had a heart attack from the sudden pinkness and then the absence of street lights.
Considering the speed at which your life is moving, a gentle nudge would be all it takes to radically alter your trajectory. One such small adjustment could have unexpected consequences. For the next day or so, slow down.
Considering the speed at which your life is moving, a gentle nudge would be all it takes to radically alter your trajectory. One such small adjustment could have unexpected consequences. For the next day or so, slow down.
Wednesday
today i sat in the garage for 2 hours to do work.
the garage was the only place i could find quiet.
in the garage, in my parked car, in the dark, on my computer, doing work.
the garage was the only place i could find quiet.
in the garage, in my parked car, in the dark, on my computer, doing work.
My New Tat
I think it's self explanatory...
#2 & #3 to follow... in probably a few months if not a [100] few years!
Portraits
Today I had the privilege of attending the taping of the Hour with George Stroumboulopoulos. This man is very, very cool and down earth.
He spoke with Joe Clarke (previously taped hence no pic) and Eugene Levy.
Must Remember....
Memory: an organisms mental capability to store, retain, and recall information.
Faded pictures is all I have of you
Echoes of memories
A happy past lifetime
Lost amongst the wind
Could it be so many sunsets ago
I held you close to me
Was it but a fleeting moment
That our lives were meant to be
Once upon a time, I met this person, he was charming and loveable on the outside, but had no respect for himself on the inside. Naturally his outer facade was seen through and the world saw his ugliness. He reminds me of Dorian Gray. A part of me will always wish that this person will find himself before it's lost amongst the ruins and realize that life is about more than the superficial and that perfection is user defined.
On that note - sending all my love & fuzzy feelings to my one and only xoxo
Under the Microscope
When you have nothing better to do but to re-evaluate your life, dangerous things happen.You stop and you come to terms with things that you have swept under the rug because you did not have the "time" to deal with them.
"Skeletons in the closets"
I realized today that I am very tired of chasing. I never liked tag as a kid, it was one of the most pointless games I learnt to play. For 15 whole minutes, all you do is run around tagging people and then running away from them when you succeeded... Considering I never liked it as a child, it is easy to say I do not like it now.
Worst yet, now it is not a game, it is just an ever chasing of something that may not exist.
What am I chasing that seems so impossible?
A dream, an ideal, a notion, a desire, who I am reciprocated.
Ah
Now that I have said it out loud, it is that much easier to accept that it will never exist.
Tonight, the words are too jumbled to make sense.
Even the sensation is too harsh of a trap to try and escape.
For tonight, I surrender.
For tonight, I am not worthy of what I deserve.
For one more night, I will hopefully wait.
A Bone to Pick...
I'm annoyed - and most people know I don't get annoyed easily.
I've recently noticed that there are some people who take a lot of things... and I mean A LOT of things for granted... one being friendship.
I wonder what gives people the right to think they can literally demand things of people without speaking with them first and then giving a nonchalant "if it happens, it happens, if it doesn't don't worry about it" response. That is plain selfish.
Just because some people are fine with assuming that their inconvenience does not bother other people does not mean that the inconvenience doesn't bother people. It may sound redundant, but really, think about it.
Why are some people so comfortable with making others make adjustments for them but never compromising on their end? They make people go out of the way for them, yet they do nothing in return.
Let's take for an example, if a friend invited you out to dinner for your birthday and you invite other people, do you assume that friend will pay for all your friends that tagged along? Would you even think it fair to ask such a stupid question? Sounds obvious - but apparently not to some.
Anyway, I can go on and on, but I don't want to point fingers - it is that Christmas time and if I'm going to be forgiving I should be extra forgiving around this time of year...
Mirror to the Soul
I can show you all the beauty you possess if you would only let yourself believe.
Rootless
A rootless foundation
Shouts of timber
Watch the bending branches
Wind merely whistling
Dew gathering
Trunk toppling
Cannot hold itself up
Under any natural pressure
Fall down
Rootless foundation
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