How Do You Title Longing?

I wonder if that cliche of "woman's clock" has any truth....
or maybe it's just that I'm seeing all my friends settle down and find that person they want to spend the rest of their life with...If that feeling isn't mutual do you count your losses and look somewhere else?  What if the heart doesn't want to look anymore.
It's starting to ache... to wonder if I deserve that stability; that commitment; the respect; the honesty; that other person wanting to spend the rest of their life with me....
Even the one most non-committal friend I have has now made the plunge.
Maybe it's just me... seems like there are 1000 reasons why it's me... 
I guess, at least if all else fails, I'll be there....

One Last Time

What do you do when the one thing you treasure most feels like it's slipping away like water through your fingers?

You want to hold on, but the forces are against you?

How do you stop the pulsing pain each time you take a breath?

And when I'm Sorry can't unbreak the heart?

Last Night's Demon Chasing Me

Open wide, demon face
Down the rabbit hole esophagus
Into a fiery burning hell
That Echos
Magnetic pulls, delusions
Very convincing to follow
Not today, not tomorrow
Cannot drown my sorrows
Cannot steal my soul

Children...

i haven't slept for 2 weeks because of the topic of children.
no i'm not married.
no i haven't been asked either.
but i've been asked to have children.
to carry a family name.
is that something to ponder?