Last Summer Long Weekend 2009

This year, no pictures.
Things I missed out on this summer:

• Campfires
• Hiking trails
• Meteor shower
• Summerlicious kick off
• Just For Laughs
• Montreal
• Taste of the Danforth
• Rollerblading
• Golfing *sniffle*
• Hurting my back
• Watching the sun set by the lake

Things I did too much of:

• Unionville
• Cancelling plans
• Sitting around
• Shopping
• Nursing my back
• Nothing

Into the Darkness

Fallen into a never-ending abyss of self torment...

Is happiness a myth like god?

Welcome to the 5th Dimension

Part II

The magic of photoshop....

Snow Globe... In the Fall

Water Falls

Forks of the Credit

A precarious climb over a weak fence, a trek up 91 stairs.... But well worth it

Flashing By...The Feeling

Life strangles by the neck and does not let go.

You beg and plead for the release.

Tear Drops of Heaven

Tonight, I wish I could be lost amongst the stars and disappear.

Hang these shaking hands on Orion's Belt and make this feeling a distant imagination.

A Little Bit of Heaven

Walk with me, amidst the rainbowed clouds. Take my fears and rain them down, pounding on the cement ground. Let the pain pierce the sky, light a light show with thundering sounds. When it is all over; when the storm calms; the rain stops, the lightning passes and the sounds mere echos, look with me, beyond the horizon to the endless canvass of twinkling stars and know that heaven awaits.

Toronto Through the Looking Glass

Moonlight Shadow

It stormed all night to reveal a pretty sight

A Light Show

New Lense

The new tele lense :) I was on the other side of the pond...

Now to find something interesting to photograph

Bon Nuit

Lost Paradise

With Aloha I said good-bye

A hui hou kakou - mahalo

For the mau loa now forgotten

No kau a kau eia au

A dream now lost

Apopo moe'uhane make me ke po

Aloha

Walk with Me

Walk through the garden with me

Listen to the fables of old

Smell the sweet scent of roses

Before the thorns learn to grow

Techni-colour Dreaming

Once upon a time, the stars were not the limit and the sky was not too high. What happened to the youthful bliss.
Today I am having my mini quarter life crisis (assuming I live to 104 .)



Anyway, back to my point. I remember just short of four years ago, the whole world was mine and if there was such thing as perfection, I had it. I was happy, I saw the world ahead of me for the conquering. I saw this amazing life. I had pure and unadulterated love in both my hands.

It's both a little amazing and a lot scary how much your ideals can change in such a short period of time. I think this morning the idealist in me died and a realist was born. Some say this is good, but I really think it's not. I'm a Libran you see and Libras need balance in everything in their lives. It's not an exaggeration, everything has to make sense. Everything is black and white. When the idealist dies, even that one little bit of me that was reserved to allow for grey and unknowns also dies.
I realized this morning that I am extremely tired. Like this guy -->

There are reasons I could list, but listing them doesn't make them disappear, so I will save my time. Instead I'll just say that some of the circumstances can be altered, some can be fixed, some, I suppose, if I ignore long enough might even go away. Now...
here's the realist speaking,
"how do you quantify the time you allow for this phenomenon?"
The once idealist (which also spawned a severe optimist) would have just said,
"have faith".
The realist asks,
"In what?"

Hm.

So I'm left to dream in techni-colours, in a blur, in a hopeless hope that maybe the idealist might awake and the realist calm itself.

Maybe.

Passing By

Why do we so often rush our lives away?
Have we forgotten to stop and just watch the sun set some times?

The Hollow

See through me an emptiness

Sucking in the marrows of life

But never satisfied