Must Remember....

Memory: an organisms mental capability to store, retain, and recall information.

Faded pictures is all I have of you

Echoes of memories

A happy past lifetime

Lost amongst the wind

Could it be so many sunsets ago

I held you close to me

Was it but a fleeting moment

That our lives were meant to be

Once upon a time, I met this person, he was charming and loveable on the outside, but had no respect for himself on the inside. Naturally his outer facade was seen through and the world saw his ugliness. He reminds me of Dorian Gray. A part of me will always wish that this person will find himself before it's lost amongst the ruins and realize that life is about more than the superficial and that perfection is user defined.

On that note - sending all my love & fuzzy feelings to my one and only xoxo

Under the Microscope

When you have nothing better to do but to re-evaluate your life, dangerous things happen.
You stop and you come to terms with things that you have swept under the rug because you did not have the "time" to deal with them.
"Skeletons in the closets"
I realized today that I am very tired of chasing. I never liked tag as a kid, it was one of the most pointless games I learnt to play. For 15 whole minutes, all you do is run around tagging people and then running away from them when you succeeded... Considering I never liked it as a child, it is easy to say I do not like it now.
Worst yet, now it is not a game, it is just an ever chasing of something that may not exist.
What am I chasing that seems so impossible?
A dream, an ideal, a notion, a desire, who I am reciprocated.

Ah

Now that I have said it out loud, it is that much easier to accept that it will never exist.
Tonight, the words are too jumbled to make sense.
Even the sensation is too harsh of a trap to try and escape.
For tonight, I surrender.
For tonight, I am not worthy of what I deserve.
For one more night, I will hopefully wait.

Beauty in Gray

Children of the Light

Children are precious!

A Bone to Pick...

I'm annoyed - and most people know I don't get annoyed easily.
I've recently noticed that there are some people who take a lot of things... and I mean A LOT of things for granted... one being friendship.
I wonder what gives people the right to think they can literally demand things of people without speaking with them first and then giving a nonchalant "if it happens, it happens, if it doesn't don't worry about it" response. That is plain selfish.
Just because some people are fine with assuming that their inconvenience does not bother other people does not mean that the inconvenience doesn't bother people. It may sound redundant, but really, think about it.
Why are some people so comfortable with making others make adjustments for them but never compromising on their end? They make people go out of the way for them, yet they do nothing in return.

Let's take for an example, if a friend invited you out to dinner for your birthday and you invite other people, do you assume that friend will pay for all your friends that tagged along? Would you even think it fair to ask such a stupid question? Sounds obvious - but apparently not to some.

Anyway, I can go on and on, but I don't want to point fingers - it is that Christmas time and if I'm going to be forgiving I should be extra forgiving around this time of year...

Mirror to the Soul

I can show you all the beauty you possess if you would only let yourself believe.

Into the Darkness

Fallen into a never-ending abyss of self torment...

Is happiness a myth like god?

Rootless

A rootless foundation

Shouts of timber

Watch the bending branches

Wind merely whistling

Dew gathering

Trunk toppling

Cannot hold itself up

Under any natural pressure

Fall down

Rootless foundation

Make a Wish

Welcome to the 5th Dimension

Part II

The magic of photoshop....

Fluff

I'm not sure why - but stuff that fluffs off the flowers (like the aftermath of a dandy lion) makes me happy.... I like fluffy stuff!

Snow Globe... In the Fall

Water Falls

Fire Downstream

Fallin'

Why When I

We don't exist upon your wall

But I am to assume I mean the world

There is no urgency in us

But I am to assume it is everything

I am not allowed into your heart

But I am to assume all that is there

I am not allowed to understand

But I am to assume it all makes sense

We don't glimmer in your eyes

But I am to assume together forever

We used to calm my soul

When the world wreaked havoc

We became the havoc

That wreaked my soul

We used to be taken lightly

Because there was no real future

We used to pass aimlessly

Because there was no need to think twice

But here we are, we are breaking

I am to assume I unwound the strings

For the things that were wounded

Were never as I desired

Here we are falling

Into a never ending cycle

I am to assume I want too much

That when I speak I cause a mental eruption

We break my heart

When we seem to have no priority

When we seem to just get by

When I must list all the reasons without rhyme or reason or help or support that you want exactly what I want; when all I've done is spoken, and expressed, and pleaded, and asked, and fell on my knees and begged.

When I assume, I am wrong.

But I am but to assume the best intentions.

Alone on a Rock...

What if you

Could wish me away

What if you

Spoke those words today

I wonder if you'd miss me

When I'm gone

It's come to this, release me

I'll leave before the dawn

But for tonight

I'll stay here with you

Yes, for tonight

I'll lay here with you

But when the sun hits your eyes

Through your window

There'll be nothing you can do

What if you

Could here this song

What if I

Felt like I belong

I might not be leaving so soon

Began the night believing

I loved you in the moonlight

So, for tonight

I'll stay here with you

Yes, for tonight

I'll lay here with you

But when the sun hits your eyes

Through your window

There'll be nothing you can do

I could've treated you better

Better than this

Well, I'm gone, this song's your letter

Can't stay in one place

So, for tonight

I'll stay here with you

Yes, for tonight

I'll lay here with you

But when the sun hits your eyes

Through your window

There'll be nothing you can do

Bzzzzzzz

Be Still

Be Still
Listen to the rolling waters all around
Be Still
Can you feel the pebbles between your toes

Be Still
Is there thrill left in your numbed body
Be Still
Let it wash it all away

Be Still
At the presence of silence
Be Still
Left the night fall rest your soul

Be Still

Unionville - Last of Summer '08
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Stone Cold

I envy rocks.

Stone Cold

Emotionless

Strong

Unknowing to Weathering

Forks of the Credit

A precarious climb over a weak fence, a trek up 91 stairs.... But well worth it

Fluttering

One fluttering moment and it will be too late

Blue Flower

Walk A Little....

Walk a little further, your destiny is just ahead.

Little boy, don't fret the dying sun.

The morning rays soon follow.

When you awake again little boy

A whole new day awaits.