The Zoo

At first - the puffy bear was asleep


























But then puffy woke up and went splish splashing and dangling






























The Orangutan was looking for a hand out...


































The Tiger came a prowling...




































And the jellies came a squiggling...






































All in all... a good day to be a-zooing :)



What Do You Want From Me

Hey/Slow it down
What do you want from me
What do you want from me

Yeah/I'm afraid
What do you want from me
What do you want from me

There might have been a time
When I would give myself away
Oh once upon a time
I didn't give a damn

But now
Here we are

So what do you want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey
What do you want from me
What do you want from me

Yeah/ It's plain to see
That baby you are beautiful
There's nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It's me
I'm a freak

But thanks for loving me
'Cause your doing it perfectly

Yeah, there might have been a time
When i would just let you slip away
I wouldn't even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey
What do you want from me
(What do you want from me)

What do you want from me
(What do you want from me)

What do you want from me
(What do you want from me)

No, I won't let you down

So,just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey
What do you want from me

So,just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey

What do you want from me
(What do you want from me)

What do you want from me
(What do you want from me)

What do you want from me
(What do you want from me)

Things I Learnt This Weekend (And Two Days)

  • Friendships are like stars, they can be far away but still touch the deepest part of your heart
  • It takes self-understanding, self-realization, and self-acceptance to be all that you are yesterday... better today
  • Unconditional Love may only be 17 letters long, but bear a meaning far beyond the letters can explain; it means giving all of yourself and that of which you didn’t know existed in you to show someone else how much you care for them and accepting that through their wrongs and detours you will still always be there caring
  • Daffy Duck has a severely foul mouth and Bugs Bunny isn’t as funny as he used to be when I was a kid
  • I really miss having a dog (well I didn’t actually learn that – but came to re-realize that watching Marley & Me)
  • God may be there calling me again (thanks *friend*) and this time I might just be ready to listen
  • I am counting to my 25th Timmy’s and it’s official that I have no luck
  • Disappointment helps you to learn who you are and in turn, makes you grow and mature into a better person. Focussing on the disappointment will trap you in one place and that place is never a good one
  • There’s a Taiwanese boy who can sing Whitney Houston better than Whitney Houston
  • There are 300 calories for every 27 Cheetos – a bowl typically can hold about 81 which equates to about 900 calories
  • There is 330 mg of salt in a hot dog (Shopsy’s Brand)
  • Tomorrow will never come and yesterday will never return
  • If there's fight left in you, keep fighting, even if the silver lining is not visible
  • Sake is really deceiving, you won't feel it, until you stand up

All We'd Ever Need

Boy it's been all this time
And I can't get you off my mind
And nobody knows it but me

I stare at your photograph
Still sleep in the shirt you left
And nobody knows it but me

Everyday I wipe my tears away
So many nights I've prayed for you to say

[Chorus]
I should've been chasing you
I should've been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
I should've said all the things
that I kept inside of me
And maybe I could've made you believe
That what we had was all we'd ever need

My friends think I'm moving on
But the truth is I'm not that strong
And nobody knows it but me

And I've kept all the words you said
In a box underneath my bed
And nobody knows it but me

But if you're happy I'll get through somehow
But the truth is that I've been screaming out

[Repeat Chorus]

I should've been chasing you
You should've been trying to prove
That you were all that mattered to me
Oh you should've said all the things
That I kept inside of me
And maybe you could've made me believe
That what we had girl
Oh that what we had, what we had
It was all we'd ever need
It was all we'd ever need


How Do You Title Longing?

I wonder if that cliche of "woman's clock" has any truth....
or maybe it's just that I'm seeing all my friends settle down and find that person they want to spend the rest of their life with...If that feeling isn't mutual do you count your losses and look somewhere else?  What if the heart doesn't want to look anymore.
It's starting to ache... to wonder if I deserve that stability; that commitment; the respect; the honesty; that other person wanting to spend the rest of their life with me....
Even the one most non-committal friend I have has now made the plunge.
Maybe it's just me... seems like there are 1000 reasons why it's me... 
I guess, at least if all else fails, I'll be there....

Fables: Animal Farm

Fables: Animal Farm


The struggle continues in fabletown this time between "New York" and "Animal Farm"


#1 was far more interesting, but I'm still very intrigued to read the next 10 issues.

Lost in Fables

Since reality isn't a pretty place I've recently found my new escape.


1. Fables: 1001 Nights of Snowfall
2. Fables: Legends in Exile


A series of graphic novels by Bill Willingham in which legendary fairy tale characters have taken human form and are hiding in exile since their lovely Homeland have been raide and overtaken.


A great twists to the classic characters and how each o their stories are somehow intertwined. Looking for the next 12 in the series... They're posing to be a harder find than expected.


If you like the classic tales and what graphic novels have to offer I highly recommend the series. Wonder if it'll succeed in becoming a movie series. Probably not though. Oh well...


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Avatared

Amazing CGI - check
Cool scenery - double check
Oscar winning plot - questionable
Deserving all Oscar animations - double questionable


Was it a good flick yah I'd say so. Is it the flick of the decade I wouldn't count on it. The whole bad guy seemingly straight out of Halo 3 wasn't impressive at all. I felt like I was momentarily playing star craft or something. Maybe it was the mind control avatar thing I felt severely disconnected with the tribe.
Pandora was definitely amazing however I'm a little sad to realize my basis for my fantasy world "the hanging city" is no longer
my best kept secret... I guess all brilliance does become reality one day.


Would I recommend it - yes and for the first time I actually would recommend it in 3D. Would I sit through it again - to be honest, probably not.


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Your Emptiness; My Despair

While I'm missing you
You're missing her
Faceless, nameless
Couldn't be bother with your heart's content.
Only cares where you sign
Dotted Line
And the next time you'll return.
Feels so cold
In your embrace
A nobody in my place
That you dream of now instead.
She'll scream your name
If you place
A credit line
To pay for her next expense.
We drift apart
Can't be whole
Argue tomorrow
Because you're no longer mine.
The energy you commit to it
Instead of time, to build what is
Lost in space, so meaningless
When you turn back it's nothing but 
Emptiness.
I'll be gone built a life
That could, should, would be yours
But in place
You took a short turn road
For a taste
Of 30 seconds of pointless bliss.

Perspective

Humming birds flutter a graceful dance;
Shockwaves unravelling the queen ant's nest.

New trends, must have, millions;
A child laborer's blistered hands.

Rainstorms quenching dry parched horizon;
Mudslide buries the endangered species land. 

Today's Radio Show...

30 Chick Flicks in 30 Days

I was about to change the radio station when this topic came up, but I couldn't be bothered and glad I left it.
In summary a married couple (real story) went on this venture to watch 30 chick flicks in a month.  I thought the consensus from the guy (who was interviewed) would be that overall they were cheesy and too stereotypical.  But he saw past Hollywood, which was a breath of fresh air.

He concluded that to maintain a success relationship you need 3 key factors (amongst the obvious ones)

1) Forgiveness - not just between man and woman, but in life
2) Vulnerablility - allowing yourself to love so much that you let the other person (now talking about the relationship) to enter 100% into your heart so that you let them love you and in turn, risk being hurt by them too.  But without this vulnerability you will never truly learn to be a part of something
3) Friendship - this one quite straight forward

It was nice to hear it from the guy who actually said by sharing these 30 days with his wife, he's managed to turn into a better man.  He said his wife has noticed that he's no longer doing the things that hurt her, is more attentive - listens well - and funnily - has become a better kiss because he's aware of her non-vocal signs. 

I guess it's nice to know that a seemingly stupid social experience could help improve a marriage. 

There is hope for love afterall.

Movie Updates


First - the movies I've recently seen:


Valentine's Day - yes, as cheesy as it was supposed to be, I actually liked it a lot.  The cast was quite huge - no oscar nomination I'm sure, but still it hit the spot where I needed some loving most.

Alice in Wonderland in 3D - A) didn't need to be watched in 3D, B) very creative C) very Tim Burton D) overall not bad, but I'm not sure if it warranted a rush to opening weekend.  E) If you don't know the story of Alice you'll be very lost because he's done quite an adaptation instead of a literal re-make... Amazing cinematography though.

To the Oscars

1) Yay to woman winning best director
2) Yay to UP
3) Now I must see the Hurt Locker
4) Yay to Sandra Bullock - she did do quite a good job in the Blind Side
5) Yay to getting the summary and not sitting there for 3 hours watching the whole thing

Introspect

I got caught up on Grey's finally this weekend. Yes, I know it's fake drama and none of that crap really happens that often in a hospital but Cristina said something that made me wake up too.

She said she let Burke take a little piece of her at a time, so small that she didn't even notice until she was standing at the altar with no eyebrows and not recognizing herself yet still she would have married Burke. She had given up everything that she believed in and had passion for to please him.

....

I don't know where my camera is; or my sketchbook; or my score sheets; or my bucket list for that matter. I don't remember the last new restaurant I tried or street fest I attended.

So today I strummed a guitar for the first time and hell I sucked but that flint; that amber of flame re- ignited and I felt me again. The passionate me, the expressive me, the give my all me awoke and as a promise to myself nobody will be given the time of day for trying to snuff it.

"if you lose yourself who is left but nobody. "







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You Have to Wonder

One of those days at the office where the work was neverending and nothing was going right. Got my first real slap in the face when I realized everything I was giving just wasn't good enough.

I finally managed to claw my way home in hopes of warmth and comfort but instead I'm met with sarcasm about how it's nice I finally decided to come home. And here I thought it was cold outside...

Today definitely falls under the column of 'forget me please'.

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Dear John

I finished my book.
It was a disappointment at best.
Mr. Sparks don't write any more stupid books.

Ice Ice Baby


Do you remember him?
ICE-ICE BABY
He was the half time show at the Raptors Game on Wed...
I wonder how old he is... 45? 50?
HAHAHA...
Good ol' memories.

On another note - Raps gave me a scare - trailing at one point by almost 20.... to the nets...
WTF...
Good thing we cleaned out and walked away with a W.
Free pizza - that I never capitalize on.
Chinese - Free.... Guess I'm just not that chinese afterall!

Looking forward to the slam-dunk contest - though, not too many interesting contestants even if DeMar does make it.

Disassociated

Wide-eyed, non-blinking lied to
In the face, with a smile
Brushed aside
As if just another moment in time

Lost in space
Out of Place
Can't escape
A world that's superficially mine

Won't relate
Or incorporate
Or let me be
all that I am as part of you

Spoken to
Like a child
My importance, non-chalance
Not intended to be made whole

525,600 Minutes

Rent: The Musical

12 years ago it was good...
12 years later... still just as good.

Glad I went to see them and had some really great seats too!!!

Mercy

I walk through fields that haunt my dreams, this time I fear it's broken me,  I tasted you so brief yet sweet, the morning comes it's choking me, It's the way you always left me coming down, In a sea of painted whispers did I drown


I'm so tired, I'm so wired, It's not enough to pray for Mercy, I've tried,
I'm so tired, I'm so wired, It's not enough to pray for Mercy, I've tried...


I battle through these thunderclouds to find my way to fields of gold, Somehow I always see your face, Things aren't always what they seem, pretenders all just falling at your feet, C'mon love, I reached the tree now let me see,


And they say that you can reach the sky upon your knees and without pride, I'm screaming, but my needs have chained me to the ground...

Shine for me, walk with me now...

Before Yourself

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.

If the recurring theme is "what's in it for me" then this life will be a lonely & inhabitable place.

Question...

This article here is all about how Bargnani has a great game with a double-double & leading the Raptors to victory.
So tell me why then... is the picture of Bosh laying up the ball?
Why does he even get credit for an article that has nothing to do with him?

Eye Twitch??

My right eye has been twitching for 3 days non-stop.
Asian myth tells me something "good" is going to happen...
Western medicine says I'm "tired" and that these are just "muscle spasms" and I just need rest.

I was leaning towards the Asian myth thing until it continued to the 3rd day and nothing "good" has happened...
I'm starting to re-direct my focus on the western medicine claim....though I did sleep earlier yesterday already.

I wonder what the Native Indians say....

Some Surprises are Good!

Just reviewing how the Raps have been this year so far... since I just re-read my 15 year "memories" posting.

Good Surprises...
Amir Johnson
Sonny Weems
Marcus Banks
These three guys being known as our "defensive" group
CB4 all-time leader in double-doubles

Not too Surprised...
DeMar DeRozan not delivering as he claimed... the "next VC"... There's been glimpses of his potential, but I was expecting a lot more from this kid
Reggie Evans, still stuck on the bench as a cheer leader
Jose Caledron not the same "amazing" point guard he seemed to be last year... Someone's finally realized he can't defend for his life.
Jarret Jack showing he's overall a better PG than JC
19-20 standing

BAD Surprises
Hedo... Enough said

Just a thought...
T-Mac is back on the trade market - how about re-acquiring him for Hedo :)

Things that SEVERELY Rile Me

http://www.thestar.com/news/gta/article/749478--traffic-cop-holds-up-speeding-surgeon?bn=1

Here is a CARDIOLOGIST, got paged, rushing to the hospital to save someone's life and the stupid cop decides it is to his advantage to hold him (probably for at least 15 minutes) to write him a ticket...

What is wrong with this picture????

And the worst part is - the division "defends" his decision by saying the cop probably stopped the doctor from getting into an accident... RIGHT... because that's what the cop was REALLY thinking.

I wonder - if it was off-duty cop that was pulled over, what would the end story be.  I think they would have shared some lame joke about donut runs and would have been on their way.

Just because you are a cop, doesn't give you the right to abuse your privileges - if I could only count the number of cops I've seen turn on their sirens just to get through the intersection and then leisurely drive off without a care in the world.  Why do we need cops if none of them are doing their jobs anyway?????

New Pod

If I can find my camera amidst my organized chaos, I'll take some pictures and upload them...
Place is great - landlords are AWESOME - some of the best people I've ever met and generous too.
I love waking up to a routine that doesn't include screaming children, screaming freeloader and a house that could very well be featured in the next "Hoarders" episode.
I also love the fact that I can come home to a clean place, not have to try and run away from children who have a keen eye for harassment and cook a real meal, and sit down and eat it - without feeling like I'm in the way - or people are in my way.
Finally feels like my life has just began - woo hoo to our new pod and some exciting times ahead :)

.... I wouldn't mind having a couch and my 42" TV though :P